From self loathing to self-loving THE SOFT YARD GOES TO YOUTUBE! Make sure to SUBSCRIBE so you don't miss out on the first video! https://www.youtube.com/@TheSoftYard The Soft Yard is a space where you can drop your shoulders and your masks, a place where you can feel like you belong and where you feel seen & heard! Let’s grow a supportive Community as a Rebellion against todays hyper-individualism, where overcoming depression, anxiety and feelings of aloneness in this ever-connected world is our form of resistance.
I know I'm a little late, but thanks to the incredible exhausting eclipse energy, I needed a little two week hiatus, because literally everything was working against me and showing me, that I need my leftover energy, to brace myself and make it through those last couple of week.
I've asked on Instagram, which episode you want next and this one was a clear winner.
So here is my story raw and unfiltered. It wasn't always pretty, quite far from it a lot of the times, but it was all needed and necessary to arrive here now.
My biggest take away and something I'm really proud of, is that my biggest hardship and adversity eventually turned into my biggest blessings and if it taught me one thing : It's in moments when things seem so never-ending and hard, to simply trust, that it will all make sense one day.
So I hope you find some comfort in my story and my words.
If you need anything else, do not resist to reach out.
You can always sign up for my mail list to be included in my very personal love bubble, where I send out love letters every week to remind you of things, that we easily forget.
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How many more heartaches is it going to take for you, to start showing up for yourself, as a person, that loves you?
I realized at some point, that I was spending way more time thinking about other, than I was thinking about myself - in the loving way, I mean.
Here's my two cents, on why finally making yourself your own priority is one of the best things you can do in this lifetime.
NOW WITH VIDEO
You know, those times, when you want change but you just cant quite get yourself to do the thing, you really know you need to do?
Not feeling ready and being too afraid to take that leap?
Listen to THIS and I hope it will help you shift your mindset.
The funny thing about this, I battled with myself for so long, to record myself in front of the camera, as well, for this podcast - THIS is my I'M NOT READY - So i"m proud that I went and did it anyway.
And I can tell you this much, the energy I spent talking myself out of it and finding excuses cost me a lot more, than actually doing it, in the end.
Remember to leave a review if you enjoy the show, give the podcast a follow here and find me on instagram
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Being alive today, feels overwhelming at the best of times.
We are supposed to be thriving in the midst of chaos and mess, eat healthy, workout regularly, have a vibrant social and love life, make time for our families, thrive in our jobs and if that isn't enough, also stay hydrated and sane.
I feel dizzy and need a nap just thinking about it.
Listen to this, when everything feels a little too much and let me remind you, that you are a human being, not a human doing.
You know those times in your life, when you are willing and ready to make some changes but when you share it with the people you love, they aren't' quite as excited as you'd hoped for and some seem to try to stop you from making those changes?
Listen to this episode, to find out, why it's actually never about you, nor the change you are wanting to create for yourself.
Follow the spotify podcast, leave a review and share it with a friend, that needs to hear this! Something that takes up a few seconds of your day, really helps me make that impact that I dream on having in making this world a better place than I found it.
I'd also love to see you on my instagram, where i'm sharing more of myself and how I can support you, to become your most favorite version of yourself and dare to live your best life!
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Season 2 is HERE!
After a long break, I've yearned to bring the podcast back and here it finally is :
The format is a little different.
It's raw, it's straight to the point, it's short and sweet.
The intention is still the same.
I want you to come here to feel seen, heard and understood.
I want to inspire and impact people.
I want to this to be a safe space for you, that feels like a big long exhale after a hard week.
If you want more support than this, get in touch via social media, subscribe to my blog and keep an eye on my website, where you soon can find my 1:1 offerings and many other FREE resources that provide you with tools to navigate this ever demanding work
VULNERABILITY HANGOVER ALERT
OOFT. Let me share a little something about me, with you, that I've been meaning to share ever since I started this, but that I kept shying away from.
The trauma that changed my life forever.
It started with a phone call and ended with the biggest loss, I had yet to encounter in my life and put my life on a trajectory I didnt see coming.
In this episode I'm admitting a few truths I have never dared to say out loud before, yet thought I'd ever share publicly.
But here we are again.
Tune in and listen for yourself, how grief became my biggest catalyst.
This week, I'm reading you a love letter to myself, that I got prompted to do, when reading Rise Sister Rise.
Background music:
Heartbreaking by Kevin MacLeod | https://incompetech.com/
Music promoted by https://www.chosic.com/free-music/all/
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Todays episode, starts with another disclaimer and trigger warning. I'm sharing some of my poetry at the beginning, that I know, the last time I've done this, triggered a lot for some of you. So please be safe if you're listening to this while driving and reach out if you need anything after.
I am also talking about death and losing a loved one to cancer.
I'm tapping into anger, the release of it, how to acknowledge and start healing ancestral trauma.
This week's homework is to ask better questions and to become better listeners, why I think its important, why its the only thing I regret in my life, that I wish I've done when I was younger and why we all need to invite more of this into our lives.
Last week, I was delivered this question through another Podcast and I found myself with a big lump in my throat and some resistance to pair it with. So of course, what better way than to dismantle and unpack, whats underneath this, than right here, where I think it belongs.
Enjoy x
Amanda is a wife. A mother. A blogger. A Christian.
A charming, beautiful, bubbly, young woman who lives life to the fullest.
But Amanda is dying, with a secret she doesn’t want anyone to know.
She starts a blog detailing her cancer journey, and becomes an inspiration, touching and
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Until one day investigative producer Nancy gets an anonymous tip telling her to look at Amanda’s
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Scamanda is the true story of a woman whose own words held the key to her secret.
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